Do not withold Your mercy from me, O Lord; may your loves and truths always protect me Psalm 40:11

This morning I had a seizure; I won't get into the details about scaring my roommates and the paramedics and massive headache and sleeping for twenty hours though. I've been near tears all day today, though I'm not quite sure of the cause of it. Embarrassment? Hopelessness? Scared? Rather a combination of them all, I'm sure. What I'm so thankful for is the realisation I had today. Even though I had a seizure, there are endless ways that I should show my gratitude to God.
1. Keeping me safe. Of all times to have a seizure I was sitting down on the floor and was only in the presence of my roommates. I barely bit my tongue at all and my work load in school has been minimal so I have had an opportunity to sleep and get better.
2. At first I was angry that I had a seizure because I want a motorcycle SO bad, and there's no way that I can ride one (or even a car for that matter) for the risk of having a seizure while driving. I've often been repeatedly having petite mal seizures but I've had them so often I tend to disregard them completely by now. Perhaps having a grand mal has shown me that this is serious, and I can't simply hope for the best.
3. I scheduled a doctors appointment a couple weeks ago for Friday at 8 in the morning. At least now I can talk about my seizures in more detail in order to allow the doctors to decide the best treatment to help me.

Whenever I am afraid, I will Trust in You.
I just pray that I can think this way about all events that seem hopeless in life. <3