Some things you just can't explain
I deleted everything i wrote, I deleted so much in livejournal as well. I can't explain why I felt I needed to do it. Honestly, it felt like i was deleting every part of me that existed this past year and a half...I dispise that person. It wasn't even Maggie-if that makes sense. Everything feels different lately though- better. Happier.
I guess it's a form of denial. That by deleting my "memories" written down in these journals i'm convincing myself they don't exist. I guess this whole time wasn't a waste of my life, but just something to learn from, and forget.
And that's exactly what I'm going to do.
There's only one that finally got me out of this spiral.
Last night on the phone..
Maggie: I can't. I made a promise.
Brian: to who?
Maggie: Someone.
Brian: who?
Maggie: why does it matter?
Brian: let me guess is it...BILLY?
Maggie: no.
Brian: who then?
Maggie: *smile* Someone <3 You won't guess Who though :)
I guess it's a form of denial. That by deleting my "memories" written down in these journals i'm convincing myself they don't exist. I guess this whole time wasn't a waste of my life, but just something to learn from, and forget.
And that's exactly what I'm going to do.
There's only one that finally got me out of this spiral.
Last night on the phone..
Maggie: I can't. I made a promise.
Brian: to who?
Maggie: Someone.
Brian: who?
Maggie: why does it matter?
Brian: let me guess is it...BILLY?
Maggie: no.
Brian: who then?
Maggie: *smile* Someone <3 You won't guess Who though :)
posted by BubblexTeaxHippie at
11:02 AM
2 Comments:
I love you!
It's so crazy. JUST today, I was going to text you to update your blog because I miss reading blogs of people I actually know. Haha. I know what you mean about just wanting to/having to delete all of that old crap in life that you just want to move on from. So many of my old livejournal posts were depressing and angsty and obnoxious and that's more or less why I deleted them and moved here all that time ago. Haha.
I miss you, girl. You know you can tell me all about your life any time, anywhere. :)
ILY YELLOW! <3333
haha we just always have had this psychic thing going on :]
It's part of the package of being the bestest friends EVER. (also giving me privilages of making up my own words since we both understand what i'm getting at)
ILY BROWNIEEE <333333
i hope you decided to take a nap instead ;) you'll feel a lot better..maybe..unless you're like me and end up having dreams about how i just forgot about a huge english paper assignment that is due the next day and i'm freaking out IN the dream and then i wake up, only to freak out in reality as well.
I'm not sure if i'm making this better actually.
Okay, final solution: have some tea :]
It'll cure everything. ;)
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